I could still remember
The day I shed tears over you
It was a sunny day
Everybody was cheerful and excited to get home
But it was sad and dark for me
Because I am leaving a very special place with a very heavy
heart
I tried so hard to keep the tears from falling
But I just can’t
Somehow, everything reminds me of you
When the first drop of tear fell
I said that
I never want to meet somebody like you again
Somebody who made me feel all those things
Somebody who made me feel liked, feel special
And then suddenly became cold and distant
Left me confused and bewildered
I could still remember when the plane went on air
I was sitting by the window looking out the clouds
Thinking of you
Trying to figure out what went wrong
Trying to understand why something I deemed so perfect
Ended up the most hurtful way I never imagined it to end
And everyone on board was having fun with the ‘Show Me” game
And then suddenly
The unknowing stewardess was asking somebody to show her
something
Something that everyone needs on a hot sunny day
“Show me your brightest, sweetest smile”, she said
The moment she said that I started bawling over
Because it reminded me of you
Reminded me when you told me that you like my smile because
it was beautiful and nice and warm
Reminded me when you said that you have never smiled that
much in such a long time
And that I was able to make you smile
Reminded me of how you smiled at me
And then I saw the in-flight magazine sitting on my lap
The magazine was called SMILE
It made me cry more
Made me ached for you more
Made me feel the pain more
The kind where breathing becomes so difficult
To the point that I was beating at my chest
I remember when I got off the plane
I was trying so hard to keep the tears from falling
I wanted to go home right away so badly
To be in the privacy of my room and in the comfort of my bed
Where I could cry my pain out as much as I could
Fate wasn’t on my side that day
We made a couple of stop overs
It was such a torture
Talking to my companions about something else
While fighting the tears at the same time
And when I got home
My landlord told me
that I have to move out of my room so they can start the renovation
I just couldn’t help it anymore
I was tired and weary
Teary-eyed and emotionally drained
I started to cry right in front of him
All I could say to him was that I wasn’t feeling well
It was not exactly a lie
Because I really wasn’t feeling very well
I guess he took pity
He let me stayed in my room and get some rest
And in the middle of the pounding and the sawing outside
In the darkest corner of my bed
I cried my heart out
I cried like it was the end of the world for me
I cried for the special moments that would never come back
I cried for the perfect days that didn’t ended up the way I
imagined it to be
I cried for the man who made me feel again
Feel how beautiful love can be
Feel how painful love can be
It was one of the agonizingly darkest day of my life
Can't smile,
Dannyelle
